time signs twelve.......

The time signs 12.31 am morning.(28^th july 2009)

I felt quite relaxed surpassing all odds that I faced every night. Now I opened the MS word sheet and started to really discuss with myself and transform my feelings into words to understand who I am really.

When people say that they are sleepless all night they may either contemplate about their past or obsessed with their pre conceived notions of their future with the experiences they had gained from the past. This is the state of disturbed or turbid mind which prevents acts based on norms that has been devised for perfect living.

This moment as I stroke the buttons of my key board I really felt myself entirely relieved off from my usual and confronted mind to a really peaceful and undisturbed soul which I really yearn for my entire life.

Staying away and being alone doesn’t mean that I am entirely detached from the real world. Rather the sub conscious powerful mind gives a new world that how we really bother people or vice versa.

In the delusionary world which I dwell People come as illusionary creatures into my mind. They confront. They share. They annoy. They make remarks. They feel great. They disturb. They may drag you down whenever you find a glimmer of happiness by yourself or boost our spirits high to continue our solitude success for the next level.

Solitude makes my spirits fly high...yeah yeah...i too suffer from contradicting spirits the long lasting good and evil that god implanted in every human. But in this state of solitude there is no one to make a remark. I practice inside four walls and face the battle along with numerous other soldiers. That imposed a lot difference in me. The cunning truth behind is that I face the battle along with other soldiers where every soldier excels from the acquired talents. I practiced in the four walls with myself and face the battle with a little room for other people to contemplate that how i had gained intuition and where I had practiced.

So the world is for people who perform. The world is on the lookout for watch makers and not for time tellers. Whether the watch design is from natural ability or acquired trait we help people in knowing the time.

But where am I failing. My desire to connect everything with what I had acquired over the years which finally confronted with sliding paths on my road to connectivity preventing the entire notion of accomplishing what I had desired.